What It Feels Like To Be Motherless On Mother's Day

I think we can all agree that this is a feeling nobody could understand unless they have  went through it first hand, themselves.

It’s a feeling I could never try to explain to someone who still has a  His/Her mother. Its feeling I can’t put into words most of the time. Realistically, it's the worst feeling in the world that never seems to get easier as time goes by.

It’s the pit in your stomach walking into Wal-Mart or the grocery store  leading up to this day and knowing you are going to be bombarded with a display in front of your face reminding you that you don’t have a mother to share this day with. that you are going to burst into tears just going  past the cards 

It’s the emptiness you feel when you hear your friends, family, and co-workers  and everybody around you  talk about their mother’s day plans or what they got their mothers. Another reminder that you don’t have your mom to spend this day with.

It means having to go to the grave yard just to see your mom and  then it hits you like a ton of bricks  your mother wont be with you for Sunday dinner she won't  be sitting  back in church seeing you sing she won't get to see her own mother on Mothers day.

It’s the deep sadness you will experience when you know when  you log on any form of social media on Mother’s Day. Collages, pictures and kind words everybody is posting about their day with their mom’s. One of the worst feelings.

It’s the empty hole in your body you feel when you wake up on Mother’s Day. You stay under the covers a little longer, you brace yourself for how you are going to get out of bed and get through the day. You feel empty and numb that this entire day is going to be a reminder that your mom is not here.

It’s the grief stricken feeling you get when you leave the house on this day and everywhere you go you see people and their mothers. You notice it more than ever. Every place you walk into it's like a parade of daughters and sons with their mothers. You feel like you are grieving all over again.

It's the feeling of loneliness. The feeling that nobody understands the emptiness you are feeling today. The feeling that nobody can relate.
It's a feeling no person could explain unless they too have to spend this day without their mom.